Cinderella

It should be easy to let go

I have every reason to

But somehow I remain afloat

Drifting into dissociation

Every second slipping away

It’s this familiar feeling

That swallows me any moment I remember that  it exists

Everything that burned scars into my soul

Multiplied into a million different thoughts

That festers in my mind

Until I’ve convinced myself I’m an imposter in my own reality

If anyone saw the world through my eyes

I’m not sure if they would make it

Congratulations becomes tainted with loneliness

Because success never seems to fill the void

I could be a hero

Putting someone’s life before mine

But in the same breath

I’m not taken seriously

For things I never could control

Forcibly trying to fit in a life

That I couldn’t live up to once everything caught up to my soul

I must be addicted to suffering

Fighting the never ending battle against myself

Every detailed plan frustrating my fragile being

I have played God one too many times

Attempting to pull the plug that leads to my heavy heart

Dedicating myself to this dream of freedom

But never really breaking free

Love,

Marley Isley